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The silenced shadow.....

I search for years, but i never find what I seek..
I wonder about the thoughts I have and the dreams I create...

The end result, I am, from the clash of darkness and light,
not defined by purpose nor bound by natural inclinations..

Fighting now for an identity, people scourn and jeer at my hapeless wandering...
Tempted to succumb to the bait of acceptence,
Lured by the sweet scent of easy rest I shall march on to that seemingly impossile goal I have.

Friends I have, but real are they, I'll never be able to tell.

Tales of endless friendship and alliegance of loyalties are always promised, but kept?

I do not want to know.

In times of fun, Games and glory they are there, when I'm needed they are there too..
But if I ever need them, will they still be there??

I don't know.

Visible I am only when required for tasks which dirties the hand or garners no worthy bounty.
Invisible I am at all other times of games and gatherings.

Needed, used and diacarded, that is what I have become for being too nice to insensitive
and stuck up fools.

On days where I'm not needed I always can sense a certain amount of disapproval from my surroundings.

My own mortal mother disdains at my doings.
MY own life I cannot control, My decisions often overwritten by her just by meer fact she's lived longer.

People say they know me well, but when the test comes all fall short and say I am too compicated and unsure of my being.

Mystery shrouds my life from strangers and curious by-standers

A stone walled sheild I seem to have, round a fortress that consumes the true me, never trusting never communicating.

The key that unlocks I keep near me.. No longer dangling to allow anyone in.

The phanthom that engulfed me is now one and true with me. Yet my fears remain and they stab at me with unchecked fury. I have accepted its fate and seem strangely comfortable to being alone and isolated.
But waiting, I am, for the one who shatters this isolating prison.

Death's once horrid stench has become a fragrent scent to me.
I await the day his gleaming blood-stained scythe and gaping, lifeless face visits me.
With reluctant resistance I fight the reapers taunt now, living to find acceptence, searching to quench my quest and lay rest to these haunting thoughts and fleeting memories...

The visible invisibilty I have become..

The Shadow wanders on..

Searching...

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Tuesday, July 07, 2009

Some small thoughts which came to mind recently.. Here for you to think about too....

Why is it that foreigners who come here, especially the clue collar workers, think that they can bring what ever rubbish culture of theirs here? Like talking loudly in the train, its probably common in china or india but this isnt there. This is a ridiculous undercover communistic community called Singapore. And the ridiculous china accent. If you think your chinese is so great, why then can't anyone else understand you?

Malaysians too. You come here and expect us to treat you as if you are on home soil. You're not. Get that in your heads. Remember, YOUR government was the one who threw Singapore out. So don't blame us now that we're better off you. And for those morons who have relatives working here. Singapore is NOT a gold mine. True to say that $1000 here is approximately $2000 there. But how much does food cost there? Transport? Daily ultilites? Then compare it to here. They should have a game show where they ask these ignorant malaysians to come work here for 3-6 months. Tell them that they'll paid around $1200 and then ask them how much do they think they can send home before they come here to work. Then let them come here. Let them source for a rental apartment and see if they are able to survive. If they spend more than $50 their planned amount, they are eleminated and go home empty handed. Winner walks away with a contract to work here and a sum of money, $2500+ should do since it would convert to almost $5000 of their money. I think its a smashing idea...

Any opinions anyone??

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