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Friday, March 24, 2006
OK.. heres the deal on wads going down soon... in less then a mnths time, tis site will be on hibernation.. i won update and stuff for abt 2 weeks plus.. Going of to waste my time as stated in tis country's law..
Thinking more stuff these days.. I wonder how many ppl treat God like a Shadow too? i'll be the first to admit it. Sadly and more often then not, we usually dun have God in our minds.. We only look to him sincerely in times of need.. Sure, Sure, all you "godly" people out there will say otherwise.. but let me ask you.. does God realli influence ur every tout and action? So now, i try my best to remember tis and then work on truely making God my first priority.
Then those security cams.. Ur using 'security' as an excuse to invade ppls privacy.. why not bug every single home so that you can properly "investigate" crimes and all?? Btw, I ve a realli Bad impression of the cops here.. My impression is that, they get a guy, they insist the guys a crook, if the guy keeps saying hes not the man then they scare him to confession and hey-presto! they "caught" the crook.. Wonder how many ppl they ve done tt to.. Mayb their investigations shld be made transparent too.. Then the public will noe wad goes on behind closed doors.. I ve visited a Drug Rehab camp.. The officers there are so smug abt the control they ve over the inmates. then some stupid idiot shouts at us as if we were dogs, heck his stupid brass juz looks on and seemingly approves the thing.. Then now they show advertisments on he prison and the shit abt rehab... I dun belive them and won eva will.. All govs hide secrets and agendas.. Its only a matter of the scale and type of the secrets. U want proof of this? then tell me... why is it that noone seems to noe anything not so good abt our uppercut ministers? all you got on them is their inspirational stories and all, its as if they neva broke the law before, neva get caught speeding and wadeva it is tt they do... so tell me, why is this so?
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Monday, March 20, 2006
WELCOME HOME DARLING!!!!!
LOVE YOU LOADS!!!!
haha...
My friend said the other day while we were signing up for a policy, those that say they are matured or even think they are, Are usually those that arent...
Its so true when u tink of it.. hard to explain but yeah.. is true.. Wonder how such ppl can claim that they are anyway... Im the oldest of my siblings and i dun dare claim tt.. so its beyond me as to how anyone can claim tt....
AND for Jolyn's and Gracia's information.... Janice ISNT my girlfriend.. NEITHER is Grace NOR Anthea... so yeah.. dun anyhow go and say stuff...
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Thursday, March 16, 2006
Ok, first off..... I neva knew i cld miss any one so so much!!! Darling!!! Come back soon!!!! but, BUT, dun come back untill u enjoy urself.. I miss you is ok one.. As long as you happy can le.. =)
K, now Im worried.. my bro gotta go for a major back-op.. and so ex.. dunno how to pay the $$$$.. sigh.. if only he had helped himself... Dunno la.. he so hypocritical one.. in front ppl, act as if he so concerned abt the op and all yet he doesnt do anything to prevent it.. Pray for him tho.. May God almighty gave his way..
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Thursday, March 09, 2006
Shit la.. why am i always taking the brunt of my so called "mother"'s temper? EVERTHING that is out of place in this house is MY FAULT. stupid brother throw tantrum in tution my fault ah? whos the one always give him his way and let him disrespect the teacher? then the stupid bamboo pole drop oso my fault izzit? U dun seem to give a shit abt ppls feelings.. Tell you wad, If u want me dead juz say it to my face.. dun need to drop such heavy hints..
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Have you read the news????? NEW SUBS to be offered to sec sch students.. tts so Great save the fact that is only offered to certian special schs.. why the hell is that?? all bullshit this ppl give us, they trying to say those in "normal" schs not worth the efort izzit? WTH is tt, you say this is a place of EQUAL chances to all.. so this is how you desmostrate that is it?? BULLSHITTING Ba*D.. Labelers the whole lot of you, free-birth scum...
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Tuesday, March 07, 2006
Round TWO of DotA today.. WIth InSAnE bots... Juz so you know, these bots are smart.. they buy, kill and level up faster then your average players... plus, they're the computer... they simply are good... just try and you will knoe.. LoL...
First off, a KILLING SPREE!!! then a cpl mins later, DOMINATING! and almost scored my first double kill.. too bad my tormented soul run slow... THEN, later I was GOD-LIKE!!! then, BEYOND GOD-LIKE!!!! Man! I held this streak all the way till game end too... super coolz to hear tt on the Pc... Will spur u on to go kill more stuff.. was the first to score an item that cost 5000+.. and in case ur wondering, each creature kill nets only abt 45gold pieces... and a hero abt 100-200 only... soo yea... its no easy feat to buy such an item... Tormented SOul rulez! its hard to keep alive but once in late game plus the scepter, there is simply nothing he cant kill over time... Burn! baby BURN! whooo hooo!
but then hor, today not as shuang.. cause missed grace online... =( so sad... then she going overseas liao.. im so going to miss her.... but i seriously hope she enjoys herself there.... Take care Grace! ill keep ya in prayer...
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Monday, March 06, 2006
Went for ANOTHER mad round of DotA today.... Used a Tormented Soul.. pretty much how im feeling now, but thats beside the point... I finally finally scored a killing spree!! And a Dominating!!! Lol!! so fun! Must thank my team tho.. All super pro one...
Yes, but all good things come to end end.. and im home to this prison cell, first thing my mom did was to scream at me for coming back late.. then i said I'd bath later cause i was a lil worn out, and tt earned me another round of scolding... So typical of her.. all she ever does is SCOLD SCOLD SCOLD and SCOLD me... If my bro came home at the same time, she'd ask has he eaten and stuff, then if he says he'll bath in the mornin she'd be like, "Ok, fine by me.". like whats the deal here?? I already know how much you hate me, you trying to chase me away now? Dun worry, I already have a death wish insituted.. Push me smmore and i will hit the big Red button.... Grr... I HATE YOU! Wish I was dead... Was scorched by fever the past cpl of nights.. but hey, she din care, she only scolded me for waking up late... SHe doesnt care anymore and u noe wat? I dun care either... Just say the word and the nxt time u see my face will be on a gravestone or hospital morgue table, whichever comes first.....
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Sunday, March 05, 2006
I took this online Jung typology test and here are my results...... =)
Your Type is INFJ
Introverted Intuitive Feeling Judging
Strength of the preferences % 67 12 38 22
Qualitative analysis of your type formula
You are: distinctively expressed introvert
slightly expressed intuitive personality
moderately expressed feeling personality
slightly expressed judging personality
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Saturday, March 04, 2006
A restless night awaits me, my reward for a dreaded day.
Awake I am kept by unthinking thoughts that I fanthom not the reasons.
Descionless, I just lay. Awaking the sweet sweet release that comes from this nightmare prison
Daily, this cycle repeats, slowly but surely poisoning my reason, feelings and capabilities.
Despite my sunny desposition, the darkness creeps on
Steadily devouring the hard-won territories of my life.
Suffering in silence, I endure this pain.
GOD shall now be the drive, reason and motive for my actions.
Selfish needs I have and will develope, yet by HIS Grace and mercy I shall strive on.
I am encouraged by his infinite forgiveness, but careful I'll be now as I remember not to abuse this wonderful pardon I have recieved.
The visible invisibilty I have become..
The Silenced Shadow wanders on..
Searching...
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Friday, March 03, 2006
The Silenced Shadow.....
I search for years, but i never find what I seek..
I wonder about the thoughts I have and the dreams I create...
The end result, I am, from the clash of darkness and light, not defined by purpose nor bound by natural inclinations..
Fighting now for an identity, people scourn and jeer at my hapeless wandering...Tempted to succumb to the bait of acceptence, Lured by the sweet scent of easy restI shall march on to that seemingly impossile goal I have.
Friends I have, but real are they, I'll never be able to tell.
Tales of endless friendship and alliegance of loyalties are always promised, but kept?
I do not want to know.
In times of fun, Games and glory they are there, when I'm needed they are there too..But if I ever need them, will they still be there??
I don't know.
Visible I am only when required for tasks which dirties the hand or garners no worthy bounty.
Invisible I am at all other times of games and gatherings.
Needed, used and diacarded, that is what I have become for being too nice to insensitive and stuck up fools.
On days where I'm not needed I always can sense a certain amount of disapproval from my surroundings.
My own mortal mother disdains at my doings. MY own life I cannot control, My decisions often overwritten by
her just by meer fact she's lived longer.
People say they know me well, but when the test comes all fall short and say I am too complicated and unsure of my being.
Mystery shrouds my life from strangers and curious by-standers
A stone walled sheild I seem to have, round a fortress that consumes the true me, never trusting never communicating.
The key that unlocks I keep near me..
No longer dangling to allow anyone in.
The phanthom that engulfed me is now one and true with me.
Yet my fears remain and they stab at me with unchecked fury.
I have accepted its fate and seem strangely comfortable to being alone and isolated.
But waiting, I am, for the one who shatters this isolating prison.
Death's once horrid stench has become a fragrent scent to me. I await the day his gleaming blood-stained scythe and gaping, lifeless face visits me.
With reluctant resistance I fight the reapers taunt now, living to find acceptence, searching to quench my quest and lay rest to these haunting thoughts and fleeting memories...
The visible invisibilty I have become..
The Silenced Shadow wanders on..
Searching...
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Thursday, March 02, 2006
Went DotA-ing today! Sooo much FUN to own my bro.. Thanks to Jonathan!! LoL.... Used a tormented soul too aid a Sandking to slaughter a crystal maiden and lone druid... =D
That aside, Im wondering abt how teachers can expect ppl to finish a whole moutain of Hw and maintian friends, family relationships.. They often say that if they can take it during their time, so can we... Then they say Times have changed, their time was simpler and less complex... So dun those two statements kinda counteract each other?? You say that you can do the Hw your teachers gave you, but dun you smtimes say to your own kids tt the work in schs these days so much more complicated... sure, its one thing if you got kids in all those upper cut Brandies that can do it, but most our parents arent exactly professers and the like.... So now I wonder, do teachers actually mean wad they say or tink abt wad they do? Or maybe even, just even tink abt the stress that they give the students?? Sure, a lil stress is gd but wad if all the teachers give a lil and say its not much, then won it be too much?? You say you "know" the students potential stress limits, blah-blah-blah.. Juz cause they spend most of their time in sch?? Bullshit. You dun noe your students for nuts... Most likely, u woldnt recognize them in the streets.. N more likely you woldnt belive the way they act, do things and who they hang with... Pls... Get real and get a life....
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Wednesday, March 01, 2006
Went for a mad round of initial D.. played abt 3-4 hrs... hand damn pain now.... hehe.. Wad to do? nothing ever comes without a price...My skills getting worse and worse man.. looks like no hope for me le... oh well... retiring from initial D anywae.. =)
Hrmz... Internet so boring tis week.. No body to chat to... :( Grace at OBS!!!!! They steal my Best Friend!! Grrr... so bad.. Oh well.. luckily not for long.. but still IM BORED SICK!! Oh, if anyone, I mean ANYONE, wonders why dun i chat wif other ppl, its cause NOONE will and can... Cause no common ground and im pretty much the big dumb walking joke anyway...
SO shall juz ta han till Grace comes back... I wonder when exactly tho.. I hope she din get into trouble too...
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