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Sunday, February 26, 2006
Todays AGM.... I DIDNT HAVE TO STAY!!! Yay!!!
So shagged out tho.. Cant seem to sleep well nowadays.. Its getting worse these cpl of days too.. nightmares, too much stuff i have botled up.. now its taking its toll on me.. sm stuff i keep up i oso not aware i did so.. Then all it takes to detonate tis tickin time bomb is a tinnie winnie lil spark.. and BOOM! i'll blow... sigh..
Finally managed to clear up my fish tank.. its so nice and clean now.. and I love watching my goldfish scare my Tetras around.. its kinda cute... Then i bought tis 1cm fishie that actually dares to ATTACK big fish that are like 5x his size when its not full... Kinda Ridiculous rite?? but its true! I was observing it at the fish shop then asked the aunty and she told me tt it bites other fish when its hungry.. lol.. so it must be well fed at all time... like tt i go army must arragne smting le... My family son give a shit abt my poor fishies.. so must persuade them to FEED MY FISH!!!!
2molo going for Initial D "training" at Boon lay.. shall camp there the whole day... hope i can regain at least abit of my former skill lvl..
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Saturday, February 25, 2006
whee!!! Argueing with Jolyn now.. I cant belive how much fun it is... I neva eva tout arguements cld be so much fun.. yea.. todays the first time tt i din go church on sat.. and i kinda like the feeling.. No unwanted stress! More time on the games i play too.. Cross watch out! I juz love wrecking ur 'vette.. hehe.. 100000 bounty! how not to love it?? anyways, its funny how words carry diff meaning and tone on SMS depending on hu sent it.. but always always be careful when doing tt.. cause it is a toneless msg afterall.. So sian 2molo AGM! Another Grouching Meeting is wad it is.. all the adults go there and GROUCH!!!!!! wad a waste of time... sheesh.. oh well.. tis is life and ill deal with it as it comes... Army incoming! sigh... so sian.. yet im looking forward to it.. get it done with.. wadeva man.. its juz another waste time Gov birght sparks..
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Friday, February 24, 2006
More touts to tink abt...
Why are some ppl so easily brainwashed?? They tell u tales of visions told to them by "God" instructing them to go blow some poor soul to a million pieces..
Like God will tell his beings to blow up his creations with his own creations..
where is the logic in tt? U believe them juz cause they are "spiritually in-tune".. they claim this themself with lil proof from anywhere... so how can u believe them?? its too too silly...
Wad is the diff btween a true mature person and a matured tinkin one??
The actions is the diff.. A true mature person will ve actions t speak for him..
a tinking one only tinks such mature ideas but usually doesnt do shit abt it...
Sadly, there seem to be more tinking ones in my life... All with their holier-then-thou attitude.. and their stinking act tt they are oh so smart, rightous and stuff... F* them all..
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Thursday, February 23, 2006
Sigh.... Recently Discovered my own mother looks down on me... All she aparently cares abt is her pride... My bro had tis math Q he cldnt ans and she purposely dun ask me.. juz ask my other bro.. Her actions and all... they give me the msg that she doesnt want to have anything to do with me.. MY MOM can you imagine?? wad the hell.. but guess wad??Im super used to such bull.. All the so-called friends.. so insensitive.. Who the hell cares these days.. the world is so corrupt.. Wish I had a couple of mass Area Fusion Devices... blow everyone to hell..
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Tuesday, February 21, 2006
Whee!! todays another boring post.... Cause i dun go sch.. so nothing to sae.. Shld ve coaxed Grace out todae then not so boring.. anyways tis Sunday!! Yay!! cant wait to go out with her.. Shes so fun to be with..
praying a lil more these days.. waiting to see God's ans to my questions... I wonder how will i noe if its him tho.. Yea.. my feelings are clouding my touts and decisiveness these days... Smtimes wish i wasnt the way i was.. ALways geting stepped on and brushed aside.. Unfortunately, Im getting used to it too.. no thanks to my parents.. always blame me for EVERYTHING wrong.. even if im not at home.. so stupid.. Dun care.. give me more time and ill shift away frm them.. They ve no idea how lucky they are tt im still alive.. would ve died long long long ago...
Still pulling myself out of depression.. no idea if im winning.. dun seem to care either.. Die Die lo.. Oso gd.. dun ve to take any SH*t frm the world.. Even the church is so horrid these days.. Can U imagine?? Church ppl but so insensitive... No wonder ppl turn to other meaningless "religons" easier and seemingly no hypocrytes..
Even the lowliest of Beast knows order.. Order is the purpose of intellect....
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Sunday, February 19, 2006
K.. tis post is abit late.. but i only said i'd try rite?? was exhausted out completely yesterday.. packed up equipment at abt 2300 in church.. it was fun tho i felt very erm.. lonely to say the least... The food was O.K but the service... not as good... the waiters seem to ve no common sense and very eager to chase us out.. i mean.. we paid u noe... so use ur head.. When ppl watching the screen, GET OUT OF THE WAY!!! its not as tho we watch the whole nite... SO stupid..
tt apart, i messed up gd during the worship.. play EVERYTHIN wrong... feel so dumb.. luckily ppl din notice.. Feeling so distant frm them.. so unconfortable.. dun wanna go there anymore.. IF they shift, i won go anymore... lest the LORD says otherwise... but then even if i dun go oso no loss to them.. they are all abt talent and fitting in... and i dun fit in.. so to hell with them..
Every empire Falls.. u juz have to noe where to push....
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Saturday, February 18, 2006
Todays the Day! The 45th ani... Hopefully I dun mess things up.. still cant get the things rite.. x but yea, thru god I can... So I shall leave things up to God.. If i mess up then so be it... Maybe I'll post again tonite to tell ya wad happened... but for now, bored while waiting my mousie's software to D/L... i cant stand my modem.. but do and make do i guess, live with wad you have and be happy... No point yearning after things you cant have.. yea.. but once you dream of having the thing, make it happen! dun let it rot till kingdom come...
Feel realli realli helpless.. i cant help my pals with anything and its making me upset too.. I cant help with their Hw cause its totally beyond me, I cant confort them cause im not tactful enuf... thankfully tho, i can listen fairly well and tts all i seem to be able to do... Luckily my friends are O.K with tt and Im thankful for it... Yea.. hopefully I can learn to be tactful since im not smart to pick up their hw... A least i know and bother to care when my friends are in need of help.. unlike sm ppl...
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Thursday, February 16, 2006
A shadow isnt made by choice... It is fabricated when light and dark clash.. I din choose to be a Shadow.. but it is fun once u gt used to it... U gain a certain amt of "social stealth" I can walk out of a party without being seen.. I noe it works.. I tried... =) But honestly being one isnt meant for everyone... u cant choose to be a shadow doesnt work tt way... Oh.. fortunately u cant buy ur way in too.. So all u half-wited rich posers can Beat iT!
Watched I not stupid 2 today.. So touching.. really hit home.. neva tout i could get emotionally aroused by a show.. but tis did it.. nearly cried.. Won tell ya why tho.. tt'd be making it easy for ppl out there hu are trying to use me.. It was so touching.. and so damn true.. Singapore is a society of labellers... EVERYTHING u do or dont do has a label..
Eg. U drop out of sch -> Ur a lazy Person/Ur a useless Ba*D -> potential Gangster -> Jail time and wasted future...
WAD THE HELL... i mean, come on, wads ur problem with ppl hu cant study.. its either u can or cant.. its very obvious one.. Then u say the Jackapudding frm sum brassy sch is definately top quality stuff... even IF he had once been a deliquent.. I HATE IT HERE... Everyones saying that they dun label.. But tts only lip service.. how many ppl actually dun label if placed in a snap judgement basis?? U justify urself by saying u've neva stolen, neva lied and stuff.. Have u ever stolen time frm ppl?? stolen trust?? how many of u have said one thing while tinking another?? tts lying too.. If u sae neva, then ask ur pals, parents and hu-eva and see....
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Monday, February 13, 2006
Wonder why the HEll is up these days.. Parents alow my bro to play games on the net.. smthing they always scold my for.. then when i bath, they must always use water... then when they bath, they ALWAYS screw me up for using water... wads the deal? DUn like me?? GUess wad?? I Dun like ya too..
SIngaporeans an odd lot... They Brag abt being courteous, well learned and stuff... but u look around and wonder... Are they realli?? look the bus interchange, all the damn idiots standing around those silver railings.. u noe.. those things we call Qs? for ppl to Q up and wait for the buses... Instead idiots juz hang around and rush for the door the moment the driver walks near the bus.. Makes me sick.. and wish i wasnt singaporean..
Becoming Harder and Harder to stay happy these.. my optimism is going to the dogs.. and my will to live is almost extinguished... If a serious and life-threathening accident happens to me during army.. i'd probably juz die... And yeah.. Vanish to the oblivion and juz disappear.. The place i grew up in is no longer feeling like hm.. "Friends" i made are but mere aquitantances save a cpl i guess.... but its fine by me.. i grew up 18yrs without true friends.. the remainder won make much of a diff.. =)
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Sunday, February 12, 2006
Yesterday, finally got a chance to ride a Merc Taxi! Its super coolz! Engine is soo quiet, ride was smooth and the car is fast! did you noe tt it has some sort of supercharger/turbo unit under the hood? So.. If u ever wanna pick on a Merc taxi to dust on a lil black-top run down, u'd beta think twice... Someone has already found tt out the hard way... was tellinig me how it was nearly impossible to catch one of them Mercs in the toyota Crown cab.. lol... its even more infuriating when a Merc Taxi steals a fare from him.. Eg. he sees a fare, moves towards it, then a Merc juz zips in front of him.. and he cant do nuts cause the Mercs faster... lol... oh well, do and make do rite??
Ppl tink i'm nuts cause i apparently adore cars soo much.. Then I ask u ah, who's crazier? Some half-wit chasing down a superstar cause he's hot spending hundreds while ur at it, or me car gazing for free??
U like some funny dude who looks "gd" and i like cars.. so there... its easy for ppl to tink of other ppl to look gd.. but not every1 can apprieciate a nice design on a car.. btw, u noe how many ppl i noe felt sori for the AE86 in the initial D movie?? let such a guy as Gay, oops! i meant Jay Choy drive.. Poor Car!! hahaz... aniwaes tts beside the point.. oh, no offence meant to Jay chou of his Fans btw...
Love cars! each one differs frm the nxt, no two cars handle the same.. Take an Evo down a strech of moutianous roads rite after u've taken a "Chevy" aveo down the same stretch and u'll understand... Same thing, Take one Viper GTS, Skyline GT-R and race them down a straight strech of Tarmac along side a typical hyundai and see the vast diff.. oh, a Viper has beaten an F16 on a quater mile drag b4 too.. so yeah.. It definately aint just another car.... =) Wanna own it! but too bad i tink oni gt Leftie versions...
Wa.. music practice till soo late! slept at 2a.m... it finished at abt 12 i tink... so exhausting! but its well worth it.. Juz sad tt i no longer feel at home in the place where i grew up.... Oh well, tts life... home is neva home till u make it and feel so....
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Wednesday, February 08, 2006
How does one define maturity??
If he says something tt seems deem to me, does it mean he's mature?
So.... A baby is often happy with simple things in life.. is it Mature?
Wad does it take to defend a religon from ignorant and insensitive fools??
With violence and riots, destruction?
If a religon is already tarnished by mis-lead fools, then how will further violence help??
How does one decide what to do with life??
By ppl's intrusions, intentions and "thoughts", views and actions?
If one lets such factors only lead him 100% then, is the life he lives his???
Why is there discrimination??
Are we all not mortal?
If i do things differently,do it my way, i am viewed as an alien.
If i air my views that do not agree with the world, why do i to be exiled?
Why am I an enemy of the world for being myself?
Think abt these things.... there's more to come soon....
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Sunday, February 05, 2006
Yay!! todae went viSitation! so Much fun!! Went to XiuTing's and Xin Ling's House.... Wa... Their hOmes are sooooooo big!! Nxt time I wAnNa own such a house too!! So BeaUtiful... but i tink size doesnt matter.... tho its cool, a house is juz a mere building till its made a home.... Xin Ling's doggies are soooooooooooooo soooooooooo sooooooooooooooooooo cute! esp Prince! its so playful!too bad I cant keep pets... My parents will slaughter me outright... been tinkin ever since i found out stuf i realli rather shld not ve... but its gd.. b4 it gets deep... Who can i trust these days?? i tink i shall trust but one person these days... I tink its the rite choice... I tink plenty of ppl woul find tis blog rather confusing... its cause u ppl dun noe me at all... once u do, it'll make more sense... Too bad i won give tt many oportunities.....
Ppl say money is the toughest thing on earth to earn.... I disagree.. I tink Trust is even tougher to earn and much much much easier to spend... once u earn trust, use it wisely.... once spent, it may be gone for gd...
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