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Tuesday, October 18, 2011
My happiness was never anyone's concern. Never once was, never will be. It will always be a case of "if you are like this, then you will be that". Never once has anyone stopped to think about my feelings. Its always do this since you love her, do that to become successful, follow me to be a successful person. "Do things MY way. Your way is perpetually flawed and wrong in every way, shape and form." I feel so shut out from my own way, who i am.. I don't know anymore. What i do is always wrong, all my feelings are negligible, all my thoughts for naught. Maybe someone should just implant a collar. Since all everyone wants is for me to follow their way.
brakes applied at |11:25 PM|
Wednesday, September 14, 2011
Why do you have to treat me like this? EVERY SINGLE DAMN TIME you promise to inform me where you are, you fail to. EVERY single bloody fucking time you go out with friends, you forget me. I'm no where in your mind. When I'm alone with you, you have to bring your friends along via mobile phone. I'm so lost. Seems my whole life now is to just quietly tag along and keep you happy. My happiness has long taken the back seat and now i will follow suit.
brakes applied at |9:36 PM|
Sunday, July 10, 2011
My concern about your friends has sound reasoning. My disdain for them too. Your best friend is an adulterer. That is to say, she has zero moral values and is narrow minded. You say i dont understand, but what i do know is this: adultery is wrong, she could have always said no when he pushed for the second time. The fact she's making up excuses is a sure sign she has zilch values.
Used to trust you, but you betrayed that trust. How do i trust you after that? You just wind up fact to your liking. I already said i no longer feel special but you dont seem to care. sad.. no idea how im supposed to feel. i love you but no idea if its mutual anymore.
brakes applied at |11:30 PM|
Thursday, June 30, 2011
So sick of you! Why do you always defend your boss for her nonprofessional? She only pays you till 6. For you to stay on call till 8 already very good. Still must call so late? What you mean by no choice? She can do it herself right? Why bother you? Worst still, you say you can never get me when you really need me. I think I usually do pick up the phone when you call. If i don't it's usually because the workshop is noisy and i'm preoccupied with work. I have ever turned back from city hall MRT just for you, in case you have forgotten. I feel you treat me like garbage. I'm so tired.. It isn't fair. I think I need a break...
brakes applied at |11:30 PM|
Tuesday, May 31, 2011
So very sad. I post, you call and challenge me. Instead of reassuring me, you chide me. So I shall take all my frustrations here. Here which you mocked. Here where you can learn so much about how I feel. Its so disappointing to think I fell in love with you for reasons which turned out to be only applicable to friends, but continued to be in love for some other funny reason. Seems those reasons turned out to be that I found solace, some comfort and love. Something I can't seem to get at home. I love the way your hair smells, I love the way you tease me, I love even the uncouthness you some times display. I think I have done well to deal with your temper so far but still feel I need to do more. I'm so insecure now.
I'm not financially stable and you have little trust in me. How am I supposed to feel now that after a 1 week trip with your friends you suddenly say its ok for me to chat with girls because you want to chat with your ex and other guys. You suddenly say you want more friends, yet refuse to intro them to me. I told you the reason, its because you have poor character judgement and I can help you filter the unwanted chaff but you don't listen. I hate cheryl for always implanting things in you that I do not like and for assisting you in your cheating. I will probably never treat her nicely anymore. Don't ever expect me to.
brakes applied at |9:54 PM|
Sunday, May 15, 2011
Really sad. You cheated on me. And aren't actually sorry about it. How do you think I feel? How am I supposed to feel? I couldn't lie to you and go on a holiday enjoying it like you did. I feel so hollow. What did I do wrong? I know I'm not perfect but I do try.
I'm also not stopping you from making friends. Even with guys. But I do think you could at least be honest enough with me to tell me so. What do you mean by you have to report everything to me? Which ass gave you that idea? You are not single. You are attached to ME. I'm very lost. No one to turn to either. I don't know how to open up and looking at how things are going, probably never will either. I'm really disappointed.
brakes applied at |8:55 PM|
Sunday, April 24, 2011
Sad. You always have problems when I have a family gathering. You don't seem to like my relatives.. Even my family for that matter. I'm really depressed. Wish you can stop leading me on like this.
brakes applied at |2:32 AM|
